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Poems from Another Lifetime Part 3
by Marijo Phelps I am posting a series of poems which were written years ago before I came to know Jesus as my Lord and Savior. Some were written when I was a professing atheist and an alcoholic. If you have read my pieces since I came to Jesus I think the contrast is evident. More Poems from Another Life Part 3 AS I LOOK AT YOU And you ask me to open myself to you To reach out and touch, To risk being hurt But is it me you wish to know Or how I respond to you, imperious Aries? Who is it you really care about? I think you are trying to ego-trip Through another page of your life, But the page is blank Because I won't reach out to you.. So you sit around being melancholy In the rain Thinking of how it might have been for us When you know inside That I would be like all the rest Novel for awhile, then gone from your thoughts And I realize that you will never find anyone Until you lose yourself. BEGINNINGS Four posted and white with Scandinavian design of red and blue Yours since childhood, you told me And now the sole piece of furniture In the dimly lit basement you call your room And as we sprawled there rapping, verbal fencing, if you will I felt a start of closeness That begins even before a touch You said "you trust me" and seemed surprised I was surprised by answering yes And realizing it was true We spoke of friends and closeness Indirectly of hurt and fear.. loneliness We teased a little before you kissed me And we were closer, to what I am not sure Only that I miss it and you As I am here alone tonight. ONLY IN A DREAM I shut my eyes and began to dream I slept so long, So long that when I awoke I smiled, stretched, like I would after a dream It was warm, scratched my legs, arms and back It prickled as I stretched again. The sand felt real, the sun making my eyes water As I slowly opened them looking around The foamy water tickled my feet As my nose tingled from the salty air No one was there as I stood up and ran, My feet pounding in the sand As it slapped back with every stride I took Suddenly I stopped For there was someone else Unaware of me, he slept in the sand I stood and watched his peaceful breathing As the sun glinted on his deeply tanned back As I looked a small tear trickled down my cheek I dropped to my knees and lay beside him Knowing that soon I would have to go Leaving him there as before As I sighed his eye lids fluttered open He blinked in the sun Gently he put his arms around me And held me close to him I moved nearer And tipped my head for a kiss You were he And might have been on that beach As I opened my eyes There were tears on my cheeks I was there and found you But only in a dream. TOUCH MY MIND Touch my mind if you will But please don't hassle my emotions I may want to feel close to you But only to hug and hold for today I've told you again I won't be committed To anyone except me But you chose to ignore what I spoke For what you wished was in my heart I must be free by myself Until I find someone with whom I can BE And yet remain free and not trapped The time isn't now And the someone can't be you Once again my outraged sense of freedom Must escape the confining closeness Or perish and die Taking with it my soul Touch my mind if you will Won't someone please reach out And touch my mind? My blog is: http://myincrediblelord.blogspot.com/ (C) Marijo Phelps all rights reserved. Use with proper credits. About Self Saved by His grace in 1974, from 9 years of professing atheism into His loving arms. RN for 23 years, missionary with YWAM then statistical analyst for Every Home for Christ over 9 years. Living with my husband in the middle of a mountain meadow. GRIN! Wanting to spread the good news Article Source: http://www.faithwriters.com |