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A personal story unfinished
by S Mariah I used to hate all men because of one man. I used to think I do not need a man. I used to think I am strong enough to be my own. I used to think of revenging men. I wanted to make them feel inferior themselves. I wanted to protect all females. I wanted to act like a hero for females. I used to love same sex. I used to do lots of crazy things. I used it in order to avoid my real pains. I used it to destroy my own life. My real pains - feeling unloved, feeling unworthy of love, feeling ugly, feeling inferior among other females..... By living a life like this - loving same sex. I can avoid rejection from men, I can avoid being hurt, I can avoid the feeling of inferiority. Until God has my heart changed, I started to longing for the man God gave me. I longed to know who he is, I longed to get to know him. Until God gave me a man last year, I was so thankful for his existence in my life...I could not believe that God loves me this much, and finally I got my prayer answered. And HE gave me the best....a minister, a man who loves God so much, has a servant-spirit in him and he is very submissive to God, a stable, persistent man. We broke up 6 months ago, and that was a big blow for me and him. So my personal story is unfinished but I do thank God for what HE has been doing in my life, His mercy, His grace and His love for me, I cannot forget the man He gave me, I cannot forget His mercy and grace on my life. I will remember the man He gave me, He sent me, He brought for me. I would love to testify God for His goodness, and as I do that, this man would be mentioned in any of my testimony until the day I died. This is my promise to myself and to God. Though the relationship might not be able to be resurrected, God is still very faithful, very faithful to me. In this I declare, God is able to change, able to heal, able to turn homosexuals to be a heterosexuals. Nothing is impossible with God, in here I testify His greatness, His truthfulness. S. Mariah - passionate about the sexually-broken. Please visit http://Jesusloveslgbt.org for more articles on homosexuality. My e-books, please visit: https://www.amazon.com/She-confused-Wandering-wonderful-imagination-ebook/dp/B08HHLCHR3/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=The+âsheâ+confused&qid=1599 Article Source: http://www.faithwriters.com |