The Hole
by Barry Whitaker I've been feeling for a long It's arriving at the time To get out of this hole That I'm calling my home Time for my life to again be strong I'm stagnated, I must move Motivate my heart Get out of this bind I've wasted too much time Probably my last chance I must do the best I can My body is having trouble But I'll survive all this rubble Pain handled by your mind can then be set aside I must be careful as I go Limitations I'm still having to hone I must study and sharpen my skills I've not used them for so long But i feel my knowledge will still be strong this mess I'm dealing with at this time my body was broken by children that thought meanness was howto survive It's been devastating, screwing with my mind Starting over this late in life Is very hard For I've gone far, lived large Lived strong, worked hard Tried to live right Now to the beginning, again I must go Trying to regain the right road Should be easy, but I find it not so The years of knowedge, acquired throughout my life I'm having trouble organizing things in my mind I must devise a plan And get out of this bind I'll not survive if i don't I feel it's my only hope I'm growing to old to live on the road I'm smart and I'm skilled But for some reason I can't find the right gear I would like to feel that my life was not wasted in god's eyes If only in a small way I helped a fellow person do better in life, In some way I think then I would not feel like such a waste I think loneliness Makes me not want to try I lost my parents and the woman I'd given my love for years I seem to have wasted that part of my life That I held so dear Now I seem not to care How I live with no one to hold Day after day, I just go and go I feel in my mind A wasted life is the greatest sin In God's eyes I want to think God's proud of my life At the end of my time Hope He'll feel that I tried To live with him in mind I was saved by God's Hand. So my purpose must be in His plan I feel lost and confused I can't figure out what to do There has to be a place that I can do well once again be productive Live like a man. Have a reason To live strong Find a love I can depend on Share my story with those who don't know Teach them to be safe and get through the rough road Be successful and get thru life's bumps Pray they'll listen From one who learned Failings caused by hard-headed way. Made my life this way Even though the lesson is tough I feel everyone should learn how the street shows your heart what you're made of When all that you have is your will to survive No one to run to and cry for help Then you'll realize God was by your side all the time When you felt abandoned, All alone through hard times He helped every time I guess what I am trying to say Is I need helping hands A goal I can see in my mind's eye That's how I will know Which was I must go Finally be free from this hole I'v been calling my home. I was homeless when I wrote this after having been run over once. I have since been run over again and now have traumatic brain injury. God let me live for a purpose. As a former Navy man and as a Christian I believe that God wants me to share his impact in my life. Article Source: http://www.faithwriters.com |
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