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Right Where You Should Be
by Debra Byrd Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; For I shall yet praise Him, The help of my countenance and my God. (Psa. 42:11 NKJV) Sometimes it is hard to remember God is in control, especially when your life seems to be falling apart by the seams and your dreams seem out of reach. Nothing is going the way you planned. It may feel as though the more you pray, the harder it is to weather the storm. These feelings are normal, and you are right where you should be. I can remember when I was in my second year of law school, and it was getting the best of me. No matter how hard I studied, my brain was in a relentless, gray fog. I could not remember dates, laws, or even key cases to save my life. I often answered my tort and civil procedure exam questions with criminal procedure answers. Boy did my professors have a lot of mercy on me. I do not know how I passed my exams. The more I studied, the worse I did on my exams. Midway through my second year, I was at the bottom of my class and should have been put on academic probation. I questioned if I was meant to be a lawyer. During this time, I could hear a close family member's voice haunting me; "You're never going to be a lawyer." I second guessed myself every time I sat down for an exam. I often thought he was right. Law school was getting the best of me, and I did not have the strength to keep going. Until one night when I sat at my dining room table with far too many outlines, stacks of law books, and note cards scattered around me in a state of hopelessness and cried to God, "I can't do this any more. It's too hard." As I sat there having my personal pity party, the phone rang. After pouring out my frustration to my dear friend, Elaine, she reminded me that I was right where God wanted me to bein need of Him. She told me my life was under construction, and my pain and frustration was God's way of turning my pavement over to smooth out the bumps and fill in the cracks, fortifying my journey with his strength. Elaine also reminded me that God was the foreman on this project, and I needed to let Him do what He thought was best for the road ahead of me. By the grace of God, I managed to get through law school by the skin of my teeth. I will never forget the conversation I had with my dear friend that night. God wanted me to know He saw my pain, He heard my prayers, and all I needed to do was trust Him with my life. Debra Byrd is a new Christian author and inspirational public speaker. She received her Bachelor of Arts Degree in English from LaGrange College in LaGrange, GA. Ann lives in Norcross, Georgia, with her husband and two children. Article Source: http://www.faithwriters.com |