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Redemption in a nutshell
by Jennifer Johnson I WAS ONCE one of those lost children! I remember clearly THE DARK days when it didn't matter the sun was shining...IT WAS PITCH BLACK, overcast with NO HOPE. I had been sexually abused multiple times in different circumstances and felt SO LOW and broken, the only way NOT to feel was Marijuana and alcohol and THOSE two were only setting me up to be a victim again. BUT IT HURT SO MUCH to be sober. I spent one night lying on a floor naked and unconscious laying in a puddle of vomit. NOT KNOWING what happened to me, but I was told. A retarded plan to get back at these people backfired and I found myself in a worse situation then before. I was 18 years old and my dream was to find my husband and BE WITH ONLY him sexually for the REST OF MY LIFE. and people had come into my life and ravaged that dream and left me feeling SO DEFILED I actually believed the ONLY PLACE for such a dirty person was as a prostitute or dead! I sat at a table telling another girl who lived in a lifestyle of not knowing her worth..."I just want to die" I was in tears, very hung over. Hopeless. Next thing I know my very tall brother walked into the room and started to demand what was wrong with me. My friend told him "she's having a bad hair day" He started barking orders at me to get up and come with him. I resisted. Next thing I know I was outside and my dad and siblings were in the car. My dad said to me "hey kiddo". I burst into tears. I desperately wanted to be just his "kiddo" again. I felt so separated from that term. I felt unworthy to be his "kiddo". A loving term he used frequently to cheer me up. I sat in that backseat crying. Mourning the loss of being his kiddo. My siblings just stared at me perplexed. I continued to climb up out of that dark hole BY THE GRACE OF GOD. My message is this....I truly believe how my brother walked into that room and DEMANDED me to go with him is how a disciple of Christ needs to storm the gates of hell and snatch the lost up out of the oppression of the devil and RETURN them to their FATHER who is waiting with open arms. Ready and willing to receive them as HIS Kiddos again. Jennifer Johnson 7/25/16 Article Source: http://www.faithwriters.com |