My Soul Cannot Rest
by Cindie York 8/25/2009 / Christian Living
I am burdened this morning, unable to sleep, literally burning within, feeling the urgency to cry out in utter alarm with deep despair, travailing for the lost that are perishing around me. Life is so fragile and death has no respect of persons. I think about the many lives that I have seen drift into eternity as quick as a blink of the eye. Some were expected while many left as a sudden shock. The Bible says that life is like a vapor, here today, and tomorrow it vanishes away. Death comes to all different ages, genders, and every walk of life. Oh how the Word is true! Put not off for tomorrow the work of the Lord, for today souls are perishing.
Take the time to list five people who are not saved. Now imagine these five unsaved people only having one day left to live. If we knew for absolute sure that this would be there last day, just how relentless and determined would we be to insure their salvation? In reality, we truly have no promise of tomorrow. No one does. Not that the loving companion you hold so dear, the best friend you share everything with, not the sister or brother who sits in your pew at church, not even that adorable child you have cuddled securely in your arms, no one. Now ask yourself, what have I done today, or even this week that would lead these unsaved loved ones to the Lord? What did I do that would make an actual difference in where they would spend eternity? Can we afford to be so vague, so sluggish, so weak and ineffective? Have we truly done all that is feasible to help the lost find their way to the paths of righteousness and to introduce them to our wonderful Savior? And if we did, would they still be unsaved?
The thought of losing just one lost soul sends my heart and mind in to complete agony. How can we do nothing? Weep for mercy! Send conviction! Lord God, please forgive me for idleness. Forgive me for laziness and unconcern. Forgive me for not witnessing! Oh, God forgive me!!! Forgive me for wasting precious time. Forgive me for doing nothing to add to Your kingdom. Forgive me for being such a wimp who is so easily intimidated. Forgive me for being so afraid of rejection and ridicule that I have limited my witnessing to only the areas of my comfort zone. Forgive me for allowing others to do the job intended for me. Forgive me for my disobedience and rebellion. Forgive me for allowing the devil to lull me in to complacency. Forgive me for being selfish and consumed with me, mine, and more me. Oh how I have failed you Lord! Please don't look at me with disgust though clearly my actions have been wretched.
Who is praying for my family if it is not me? Every day my loved ones who are not saved draw one step closer to the everlasting pits of hell and what am I doing? Lord, help me not rest while souls are dying daily around me, drifting away to eternal torment. Every day that they are not serving you is a gamble with life, and more important eternity.
Lord God awaken every Christian from there slumber just as you have done for me, sound the alarm Lord, remove the scales from our eyes to see that time as we know it is drawing nearer to the end. We cannot afford to waste a single second. Give us words to speak, lift us from our beds of comfort, send us forth Lord with tongues of fire, fully anointed, boldly proclaiming the gospel, sending so much fear of judgment, that the lost would look upon our faces with such remorse for their sin, that they literally buckle with sorrow, hearts broken into shattered pieces fully repentant and ready to receive the truth. Prepare the way, Lord! Open the doors for conviction and repentance.
I have been a Christian for 23 years. I enjoy Bible study and growing in the knowledge of God's word. I literally want to soak up God's Word like a sponge.