I'm really good at giving advice. And I'm pretty good at taking it from others. I start to struggle a bit when I know that I need to take my own advice. More accurately, when I need to listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit as He tells me something I don't want to hear.
There are a lot of things going on in my life that I don't have much control over. Yet, I'm wearing myself out, tangling myself up in my mind trying to get a grip on them, force the proper outcome, demand the delayed response, see the future. But I'm hearing God say "rest".
How does one rest? What does one do in the meantime? I mean, the world keeps spinning, expectations keep mounting, time marches on and: I still don't have an answer God! I don't know what to do about this circumstance, that situation or another relationship.
The One Word God gave me as a lens through which to view this year is walk. I sat with my Bible on my lap, staring out the window at a gloomy, spring morning and waited, as best I could, for God to give me something more. I didn't know how to get up, or what to do next if He didn't answer me. Finally, He spoke:
Abby, I want you to see the correlation between walking and rest. Do not charge ahead as if you're in some race toward a marked finish line. There are no lanes, no finish lines, just a person-goal, Myself.
When I was deeply entrenched in my eating disorder, compulsive exercise was one of my greatest challenges and resting was very hard for me. In "workout vernacular" there's a term active rest. It is those seconds between sets or days between workouts that capitalize on all your hard work. During those rest periods, the muscles and tissues grow and rebuild. Without them, the body's ability to perform diminishes.
When those rest periods are used wisely, the body is able to lift more, run farther and perform more efficiently over time. In those periods, it is beneficial to drink water, consume nutrients, stretchand walk. Stagnant rest is detrimental to muscles, but slow, constructive, mindful movement accelerates healing and increases longevity.
Walk, Abby. This is how you wait. One foot in front of the other; the next right thing.
The exercise analogy can be related to the importance of rest in my daily life and walk with God. So often throughout Scripture, God calls us to wait on Him. Usually, I spin my wheels in those spaces, wondering when He is going to act, or maybe I can just step in and do whatever it is for Him. But God calls me to wait, tells me to rest for my own good.
He knows that when I slow my movement, consume the nourishment of His word and walk mindfully through each day I'll eventually come upon His answer. And after those seasons of slow movement, rest and recovery, I will be able to serve Him longer, in more difficult circumstances and with a stronger faith.