So the sisters sent word to Jesus, "Lord, the one you love is sick." John 11:3 NIV
A sudden flash of lightening lit up the dark sky. Nebulous clouds hung low, as the thunderclouds clapped. I peered out the window and watched the rain cascading down in sheets. The stormy weather mirrored the gale that raged in my soul. Our oldest daughter was experiencing a miscarriage and my husband was hospitalized because of complications after a kidney transplant. I attempt to bring my cares to the foot of the Cross. Haunted by fear, the accuser of the brethren mocked me. Falling on my face I cried, "Jesus, I believe. Help my unbelief."
The Holy Spirit ministers to my anxious soul. He whispers, "I will never leave you nor forsake you."
I pick up my Bible and open it to the Gospel of John. Lazarus' sisters sent an urgent word to Jesus. "Lord, the one you love is sick."
Faith begins to rise in my heart. I make a feeble attempt to speak. "You cared for Lazarus and his family and you care for us."
"I see every sparrow that falls to the ground."
"And You see us." I choke.
"I have engraved you on the palms of my hands."
A sweet presence sweeps over my being. I know whom I have believed and He is in the midst. A holy stillness envelops my restless spirit, as His loving arms embrace me. Suddenly, it doesn't matter what tomorrow holds because I know who holds tomorrow. As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord. We will walk by faith and not by sight.
"Peace be still."
A peace that passes all understanding soothes my fears. Our family's circumstances haven't changed yet inwardly I am not the same. He didn't calm the storm, but He calmed the storm in me.
I watch as the rain continues to splash to the ground. This truth wells up in my soul. When it pours, God reigns.
Dixie is a pastor's wife, ghostwriter, mother of four grown children, and grandmother of five "perfect" grandchildren. You can find out more about the ministry she and her husband are involved in at www.floydslighthouse.com. Guardian Angel Publishing has published 10 of Dixie's children's books.